Resolution

I'm not making New Year's resolutions this year. I'm coming to realize that they don't help me, they only give me an excuse to feel less than. I make a list of things to accomplish, then about February, when I haven't marked off the list according to some unspoken expectation, I get frustrated. The frustration leads to disappointment, and eventually to anger. I spend the remainder of the year angry at myself for not living up to these lofty goals I created for myself, never once considering how the circumstances of my life may or may not have affected these ideals that I created.

This year I'm not exempting myself from the need to improve or address areas I need to work on. I am a far from perfect human and am most definitely a work in progress! This year, though, I'm giving myself the opportunity to grow and change in a more natural environment. I have some ideas of where I would like to end up as 2015 draws to a close, and I'm going to allow myself to get there at my own pace and by whatever path seems most appealing. I know that it won't be pretty and many people will feel that I'm just blundering along, but this is my journey and I'm ready to enjoy the ride for a change and not spend so much time worrying about the destination.